- Very beginning of December, drive down to Capital City with Trillian and Scooter.
- Fly back a few days later.
- Mid-December, seminar exam.
- 3 and 4 days later, exam over 1st half of comps (it's two 1/2 days of writing).
- Next day, packers box up all of our stuff.
- Day after that, movers load up all of our stuff.
- The following day, my seminar paper is due.
- Finally, I fly out to my family.
But the past couple of days have brought a few new things--niggling little things, a presentation, a proposal for the second half of my comps, a committee meeting--that have stolen study time. Just a few hours here and there, but enough to derail my study plans to the point that completing all of my comps reading becomes a greater source of tension.
So I sent an email to the supervisor of this part of my comps this morning. Admitted that I'd packed my December too full, that I would be dealing with too much at the time of my exam to write with a clear head, that it would be a huge weight off if I could push it back to January or February, that I was hoping to write the exam remotely (this had been mentioned for the second half of my comps). That I would stand by my original date if this was too difficult a request for any reason, that I could still be ready, but that I would really appreciate the chance to do this when I wouldn't be feeling so overwhelmed.
I hate admitting when I've taken on too much--not so much to Trillian or my friends, but definitely to people in positions of power over me. I worry about showing anything that might be considered weakness to those whose judgment of me can affect outcomes. And so I very carefully pick the moments when I do this, when I ask for some concession or accommodation, when I admit that I can't do it all.
Now I just have to make the best use of this reprieve that I possibly can.