Wednesday, April 22, 2009

Guess what I'm still thinking about

I have moments when I panic, when I run the numbers and worry about how long our savings will really last (mostly when I open bills like the one we just got for my life insurance--it's figured into our budget at a monthly level, but I'd forgotten it would come due in one lump sum, right at the beginning of all of this).

But most of the time I'm optimistic. Something will come through for Trillian soon. Not quite as soon as I'd like--that would be yesterday--but all signs point to enough work, through one or more sources, coming her way in the next month or so.

And the local school district has already jumped on my substitute application, so I may be able to make it through the rest of their process in time to get around a month's worth of work before summer break begins.

I've also been able to keep the humorous side of things in view. Maybe it's immature or small of me, but the fact that the company has handled so poorly pleases me (in a schadenfreude sort of way, except that the event is not separate from our own suffering).

Turns out that the decision to let go of Trillian came from very high up, based entirely on numbers, and not discussed with anyone who actually knows her work. Her immediate supervisor, who is just below the apex of the management pyramid, did not know until afterwards. In fact the supervisor sent Trillian an email in an everyday tone, asking about an aspect of their current project. Trillian, a bit confused, mentioned that she was not working on anything, given the whole lay-off thing. Which was the first her supervisor had heard of it.

Not that it gets Trillian her job back (though contract work or even getting the job back are looking more and more likely), but I do take some perverse pleasure in the damage the big guy has done to morale. Her supervisor is completely frustrated that he has no sense of the knowledge base she has--or the fact that they literally cannot replace it with a single person. And even if Trillian does get some work back with this company, he's made it that much easier for people to understand why she might want to leave if another offer comes along.

Another glint of silver lining is that Trillian has had a lot of former co-workers write glowing references for her. The unanimous opinion among her most recent co-workers and the friend who has been trying to get her a job with her own company has been "I really want you to be working with me, but the most important thing is to make sure your family is OK, so I'll help you get a job anywhere I can." It's not the circumstances one hopes for to discover how much one's work is appreciated, but it counts for a little something.


Team Serrins Springfield said...

Not even letting a supervisor know that his own employee is being layed off is radically bad management.

Bea said...

If it helps, I'm just awestruck that you have that much in savings. Is that the whole retirement fund, or an actual rainy day fund? (Considering that I don't have a rainy day fund OR a retirement fund, I'm just, well, awestruck.)

Trillian said...

It's the rainy day fund, but, before you get too impressed with us, it's all that is left over from selling our house at just the right time in a large East Coast market. I don't know how the heck anyone could save up that much otherwise. It was pure dumb luck. As for the guy who let me go, I have taken to referring to him as the head village idiot. ;-)

Mouse said...

We're trying not to bring our retirement accounts into this yet, especially since they've suffered mightily in the current stock market.

What has been scariest for me is realizing just how much our necessary monthly expenses are. The mortgage is most of it, but even without a car payment, the rest adds up pretty quickly. (Of course, I've been joking with Trillian that we should have bought a second vehicle the weekend before she was laid off since so many companies will make your payment if you lose your job.)

Aliki2006 said...

I can't believe her supervisor hadn't even heard about the layoff--how utterly appalling.

Hugs to you both--it sounds like there are promising things on the horizon, at least.

kgirl said...

Shit man, Chris lost his job 2 months after I went back to work after a 1-year mat. leave. Guess how much we had saved?